Guess Who's Gettin' Laid?!?

Me.

F here, this weekend my parents are going out of town and I invited my fireman friend over. Should be another interesting time with him! I also might be hooking up with my ex girlfriend some time soon. She mentioned that we should "hangout" again sometime soon...

I'm excited!

Partyin' Partyin' YEAH!

F here,Last night I went to a house party and had a blast...sort of.

I met this one gay fellow who immediately started hitting on me. At first it was kinda cool, we grinded to some music and then he said "I'm sorry..." I was like "for what?" and then he leaned in and kissed me. It was a full on kiss with tongue and everything. Again I was

like, oh that's pretty awesome!

buuuuuut then it got a little annoying especially since I didn't even find him that attractive. I went up to the bathroom and he of course followed me in. We peed (he sat down :S) and then we made out some more. Headed back downstairs and made out even more. At this point people started getting weirded out and leaving the room, which made me feel really awkward. He kept telling me that he only wanted me and asked if I liked him more than one of the other guys. He was really getting on my nerves and everyone else could tell.

Around 4am people were starting to get tired and he wanted to take me up to a room to be alone, but I had enough. I pretended that I was starting to pass out and he kept trying to wake me up. I was originally going to stay over, but now I was thinking that I didn't want to wake up in the middle of the night with a dick in my mouth. Ended up ditching him and driving home. Too bad I added him on facebook before I realized he was a clingy freak...

Here he is flashing some sort of gang sign:

FWB's? Boyfriend? Something Else?

F here,

So a lot has happened since my last post...

- I got a GF!

- Had sex with a female for the first time!

- I broke up with my GF! (actually it was a mutual thing)

- I hooked up with the Fireman again!

- Had sex with a male for the first time!

- I came out to my parents!

AND...

- Now I'm seeing a guy...sort of...

He's amazingly easy going, fun, smart, normal...but...

He's going away in 4 months...

to France...

and he'll be gone for 9 months.

:(

So it really doesn't seem like a good idea to start a relationship right now.

The only problem is we're both really into each other and to me it feels like we're already in a relationship. I see him almost every day and in the back of my mind I think, why am I getting close to this guy if I know he's just going to be gone in a few months.

I suppose once he's gone maybe my feelings will change and I'll be able to move on until he gets back, but it's going to be difficult.

I think for now I'm just going to try and enjoy my time with him and not think about the future :)

- F

Yup, I did it.

I finally hooked up with the fireman...and he is now a full fledged fireman, not just a volunteer fireman. I was free the other night and thought "hey, let's text him and see what's up."

He was free at 9 so we went out for some food and catching up (since I hadn't seen him since forever). We had a good chat and when we finally finished our food I thought we were going to go our separate ways. He wanted to come over, but I told him that my dad was home and might still be awake. He said "well invite me over to play xbox!"

With a bit of hesitation I finally said yes.

When we got to the house we went into the basement and had some awkward conversation before he mentioned how he wanted to see me in my morphsuit. I got changed into it and came downstairs. He immediately started rubbing me all over and complimenting my various body parts (ie. ass, which he mentioned was cute)

Then the suit came off and we started exploring each other. Hands in the pants, and eventually dicks out. His was cute, soft, and he shaved which was nice. I just kept stroking it and then thought, "what if I just went down on him right now?" which I did.

I think he was a little surprised but immediately enjoyed it.

He started getting close and asked if I had any towels around. Unfortunately I did not, so he grabbed his $2 undershirt and used that instead...but he didn't quite get everything. He sprayed a bit on my Hollister shirt sitting near by. "Hope you didn't like that shirt."

I did.

Other than that little slip up, it went quite well and I can say I would do it again.

However...there is this girl. The girl from my last post. We've been getting closer again and I'm not sure exactly where it'll lead, but I find myself really wanting to pursue a relationship with her. Hooking up is fun, but snuggling and having a really close friend who's always there for you is more important. She really likes me and I really like her, but she says there's just something missing...that "spark."

Not sure where it'll go, but I'm enjoying my time with her so far.

That's it for this long ass post!

-F

It's a date...but not for me...

It's F as usual.

I'm feeling sort of depressed lately.

I really thought that this girl that I'm into was also into me.

We were supposed to hang out tonight but she asked if I could reschedule.

I asked why and she told me she had a date tonight.

So I was like:

Yeah, I was disappointed.

She told me she wasn't sure if she really wanted to date right now, leads me on a bit, and then dates someone else.

Maybe she's just in a confusing part of life.

Anyways we're hanging out tomorrow night...

PS How ironic is this...the movie we were supposed to watch tonight was "Date Night"

bullshit I tell ya

-F

*UPDATE* Just got a text from her saying that the date didn't work out :)

but she's feeling sick :(

Fun @ Envy

F here again!
First of all I got a MORPHSUIT!

A few nights ago I got invited to hang out with a couple of gay friends. We started off just hanging out in a house but then I mentioned we should go out. Someone suggested Envy lounge (the local gay bar)
Everyone was on board but since I wanted to wear my morphsuit to the club we decided that we all needed some costumes. My friend Andy just happened to have a roman god and sailor costume laying around.
We headed out and when we go to the club we changed into our costumes. We got out on the dance floor and not long after, Andy and I were grinding.
It got really intense! Had a great night and got a ride home from some randoms...

In other news, there is a girl!
A girl that I fancy
A girl that I also grinded with at a club the other night and that I also think I'm falling for.
She came over tonight and we watched Paranormal Activity. She was REALLY freaked out by the movie and kept grabbing my arm every time she was scared. It was cute :)

I'll let you know what happens in my crazy little world.

Can you say...awkward?

It's F again.

I have a story about a super awkward moment that happened tonight.

I had just left work and was standing on the sidewalk waiting for the light to change.

I see these people (men and women of various ages) standing around and sort of looking in my direction and one of them points.

This guy (maybe late 30's) walks over and starts talking to me as if he knows me. He asks if I live here and a couple of basic questions. So I'm thinking he just wants to know his way around. I ask if he's vacationing and he responds with:

"Uhm, well...uh, yeah...sorta"

At this point I'm still creeped out by how close he's standing to me and why he's even talking to me.

This whole time while we're talking I've been waiting for the light to change so I can cross the street. I see the light change and I have my chance but then...

He looks at me and asks:

"So, are you um...funny...like that?"

It took me a moment before I realized what he was asking.

In my moment of confusion and uncertainty around him I respond with "Ohhh, no, no."

He sort of stares at me for a minute and says something along the line of: "No? Oh sorry I must have been mistaken..."

Then he walks away and I'm stuck waiting for the light to change again...while he stands with his group behind me. The intersection I'm at is a busy one and it takes a long time for the light to change. I couldn't help but feel totally awkward standing there while a guy (who for no apparent reason...) asked me if I was gay.

Now maybe if he was younger, cuter, and didn't creep me out right of the bat, I would've responded differently ;)

ST8 Guy wants some fun?

Hello Blog Friends F here!

I just started talking to this guy from POF who told me he was looking for some fun, but was really discreet.

I added him on MSN and started talking to him and then realized I never even checked his POF profile. Once I did that I read this:

"Love to have fun, just want to share this with someone!
Looking for a good time as well, maybe some intimate stuff!
not very good at meeting girls, i want to change that
take it slow, see where it goes from there."

WHAT?!

Sooo apparently really discreet means he's not out of the closet just yet...

UPDATE: Just finished talking to him on msn and he sent me some pics. He's kinda cute, but he's 23 and he looks older. Plus he's just not my type. I felt so bad telling him, but if my history has taught me anything it's to get out sooner rather than later. I'm sure there'll be someone else soon enough...

-F

New Guy?

F here...so some random guy added me on POF and messaged me.
I quickly added him to MSN and we chatted for a bit.
He's 19 (unlike all the other 25yrs+ guys that want to hook up...)
He's bisexual!
AAAAAAND he's kinda cute (unlike the other guys...)
Would it be weird if I posted his pic?
...well I'm going to anyways.



That's him on the left...


-F

Gay Bar and Strip Club!

So a couple of weeks ago I got a friend request on FB from some gay guy and had no idea who he was.
He messaged me and said hi and asked how I was doing. I noticed that he was going to the gay bar that night and so was I. I mentioned that if saw him I'd say hi.
I went out to the local gay bar with a friend and her friend.
Saw the guy, said hi and that was about it.
Unfortunately the place was empty...I was quite disappointed, but around 11:00pm some more people showed up including someone from High School that I thought was straight. Apparently he is but he was there because he wanted to take his friend out to have some fun. Personally I think he's in the closet.
Anyways, danced the night away had some good times and went home.

The gay guy had messaged me on FB with his phone number so I added him and we've been chatting back and forth for a while. He thinks I'm cute and wants to hook up.
Here's a picture of him, what do you think:


He's nothing really special but he wants to hook up so....maybe?


In other news I went to the strip club with a friend a few nights ago. Had a great time and got up on stage twice. Let me just say, those strippers had THE SOFTEST boobs and thighs. One of them totally rubbed my dick through my pants too. Shit was so cash.

Can't wait to go to the beach this Summer and get tanned!

-F

WHOA!

Looks like this old boat's motor is turning again!
I just decide to randomly check the blog and BAM, 2 new posts.
I'll have you know I wasn't involved in any of this planning, but I must say the list will be quite sufficient for Summer activities.
In other news, I'm finally going to the gay bar!
Well technically it's a "lounge" whatever that means.
I'll have to bring back some pictures if I can!
Looks like this Summer is gonna be bitchin'

-F

Grrr....

So I hope you guys didn't get your hopes up too much. K and I have had to reschedule for sometime next week. His brother was really sick and had to stay home and I didn't even have a car to get to his place. Hopefully next week will work out...
I'll keep you informed!

-F

Don't get your hopes up...yet...

So K and I went and saw "The invention of Lying".
I really really enjoyed it. It was clever and funny and touching.
But before I go into further detail, lemme go back to the beginning when I first picked up K.
I got to his house and waited in his driveway for him to come out. He got in the car and off we went. I'm glad he's a talker cause it keeps things from being awkward...
We get to the theatre and we get our seats.
I thought maybe jokingly I would do the whole "yawn and stretch the arm around his neck" move, but ultimately decided against it.
Anyways, during the movie there were a couple of times when K laughed and kinda leaned his head into me.
Super Cute.

Then the movie was over and we headed back to the car.
It was at this point that I began to wonder what was gonna happen...
I asked where we should head next and he never gave me an answer...so I just sorta headed back to his place. On the way home he mentioned that we should've gone to the drive in.
Which I thought immediately would've been amazingly fun (and by fun I mean "great place to make out")
But unfortunately I have school at 8:30am so that wouldn't have worked out.
I pulled into his driveway and he mentioned that we should have lunch sometime.
I'm done school early on Wednesday and we decided to plan it for then...and btw his parents aren't home during the day soooooo....we should get some alone time....
FINALLY.
Anyways, once he was about to get out I held out my arms for a hug and he gave a big one, followed by a weency peck on the cheek. I was honestly hoping for more, but then he said "So, lunch on Wednesday, and then I can see all of you" as he reached down and grabbed my dick through my jeans.
:)

TTYL

-F

MOVIE NIGHT!

So tonight (if my mom doesn't screw up my plans) my fireman friend and I will be going to see "The Invention of Lying" at 7:40pm. Which will leave us just enough time to...you know.
If anything goes down (myself included), I'll let you know.
;)

-F

FML

I originally had some issues with joining POF because of the fact that I was worried someone might recognize me. I started talking with the guy from my last post and it went something like this:

Him: "so i had no idea you were bi"

Me: "it's on my display name on POF lol"

Him: "but i didn't know who you were until you added me to MSN"

Me: "ohhh"
(Then I thought FUCK! they know me...)

Me: "who is this then?"

Him: "M from SAC"
(I've hidden his identity just in case)

Me: "M..."

Him: "worked on the show last year the stage manager"

So basically he's on the College Student Administration, at my college.
He helped out last year with something that I was a part of, and he's helping out again this year.

Then he started mentioning that he was in a relationship with a girl and that we would have to be discreet and I was just thinking HELL NAW! I'm not getting into this!
So I managed to get out of that and now we've just been talking about the talent show this year...
oh and by the way...that's not his display picture, it's the poster child of one of the sac marketing brochures....FML

-F

*Cricket Cricket*

Wow...it's quiet around here...
But that's probably because we're all busy with school. I just thought I'd mention that I never met my mission to hook up with the fireman guy and I haven't talked to him in a long time, but that doesn't mean he's entirely out of the question...
In other news, I've had two guys message me on POF over the last 3 days. One of them said he could send me a picture, but so far I haven't gotten anything and the other one looks kinda cute...What do you think?
I'm a little suspicious of his picture...I mean it kinda looks like a professional photo with him posing and everything. I messaged him and I'm gonna add him on MSN so I can chat. We'll see where that goes.

-F

Mission: Hook Up with Fireman

My Mission, should I choose to accept it (which I wholeheartedly do) is to hookup with my fireman this weekend. He'll be busy with work, but he's agreed to hook up if he finishes early.
Over and out.

-F

*Sigh*

Methinks there is more to the story below...
WE WANT DETAILS!

Anyways, I'm getting tired of not being able to hook up with my beach buddy.
BUT, I made a goal to hook up before school starts, which is like next week.
So I think I should get a move on that...

-F

Sweet Dreams...not so much.

So last night I had this dream that me and my beach buddy actually went to the beach. I was supposed to be meeting him there, but as I walked over to him to say hi some people told us that the beach was closing and we would have to move. So we decided to go to some restaurant, which also had to close soon. So basically I never got to talk to him, but somehow we ended up back at my place...in my bed. Just as I go to roll over and make a move he had disappeared. :|
I was like WTF?
I'm sure there's some sort of deeper meaning to this dream, probably relating to how him and I still haven't hooked up yet despite meeting twice.
*sigh*
- F

*sigh* I just wanna hook up already.

Hey J, I'll blog when I wanna...
Which is now. So I guess my "date" went well, but I don't really consider it at date. More of just a hangout. Me and K (as I will call him) had some appetizers and drinks and then just chatted for a while.
B and J spying on us was a little creepy. When we went out on the patio they decided to follow us out there. Luckily I managed to block them out during my chat.
Since K had to get up early we didn't have time to fool around, but he assured me that later this week we could meet up. He mentioned that on Friday I could come over to his house and help him with some of his Fire College homework, but the worst part is, he seemed serious...
Though maybe if I help him he can get done quicker and then there'll be time for some fun!

- F