No Matter Gay Straight or Bi!

So I did this online test thingy...

It's sort of like the Kinsey Scale, but different. As you can see it lists my past, present, and ideal sexuality and emotional/physical sex level.

Guess Who's Gettin' Laid?!?

Me.

F here, this weekend my parents are going out of town and I invited my fireman friend over. Should be another interesting time with him! I also might be hooking up with my ex girlfriend some time soon. She mentioned that we should "hangout" again sometime soon...

I'm excited!

Partyin' Partyin' YEAH!

F here,Last night I went to a house party and had a blast...sort of.

I met this one gay fellow who immediately started hitting on me. At first it was kinda cool, we grinded to some music and then he said "I'm sorry..." I was like "for what?" and then he leaned in and kissed me. It was a full on kiss with tongue and everything. Again I was

like, oh that's pretty awesome!

buuuuuut then it got a little annoying especially since I didn't even find him that attractive. I went up to the bathroom and he of course followed me in. We peed (he sat down :S) and then we made out some more. Headed back downstairs and made out even more. At this point people started getting weirded out and leaving the room, which made me feel really awkward. He kept telling me that he only wanted me and asked if I liked him more than one of the other guys. He was really getting on my nerves and everyone else could tell.

Around 4am people were starting to get tired and he wanted to take me up to a room to be alone, but I had enough. I pretended that I was starting to pass out and he kept trying to wake me up. I was originally going to stay over, but now I was thinking that I didn't want to wake up in the middle of the night with a dick in my mouth. Ended up ditching him and driving home. Too bad I added him on facebook before I realized he was a clingy freak...

Here he is flashing some sort of gang sign:

Busy Weekend!

Things with my cute date, we'll call him G from the other night got interesting fast. Friday I was a little drunk, and he picked me up after the bar and we had a ton of fun together... in his truck hahaha it was so high school. I loved it. He's so sweet and fun to hang out with, and a reaally good kisser. Sunday, we had another date we just hung out and we were making out and honestly I was amazed at how well he knows what turns me on already, he knows what he's doing.. its intimating! But he's currently out of town today

In other news! hottie cop texted me:) and it was steamy

ooooh man I'm excited

I also have another date for tomorrow. But I think I'm done rebounding for now I'm going to focus on school and myself a bit more, we'll see how it goes lol

-J

J Update:)

I LOVE that S can put all of those events into point form. Obviously he's male!

So much is happening and it's been a lot of fun :) ..... I met a hottie cop, S has a firefighter, B better get on a paramedic and we'll have our own emergency services team!

I've been on a couple dates this week, the guys are all nice and I had an alright time. I really don't want to get into anything serious or have a 'boyfriend' for a while. I told one guy this, and he reassured me it was fine and we could just fool around.... I don't want to just fuck every guy I hang out with either. I should probably figure out what I want ehh.

Last night, I met a boy:) he looks totally tooo cute for me, he looks like a hotter version of Trey from the OC. But we had such a good time, and he was super adorable and soo sweet. I'm kinda crushing, which voids my earlier statement of not wanting to get involved. Him and his best friend are super cute together and I'm so jealous, I totally miss having a bestie that I can hangout with and call all the time and gush about cute boys to. There was a lot of good moments I had fun, I get home and take my coat off and he messages me asking how I think it went... aww. Then we talked about the date he told me I was really pretty annd he asked if I'd like to do it again! :) I kinda like that, cause he isn't playing games. It was like, we had fun lets do this again, plain and simple.

-J

FWB's? Boyfriend? Something Else?

F here,

So a lot has happened since my last post...

- I got a GF!

- Had sex with a female for the first time!

- I broke up with my GF! (actually it was a mutual thing)

- I hooked up with the Fireman again!

- Had sex with a male for the first time!

- I came out to my parents!

AND...

- Now I'm seeing a guy...sort of...

He's amazingly easy going, fun, smart, normal...but...

He's going away in 4 months...

to France...

and he'll be gone for 9 months.

:(

So it really doesn't seem like a good idea to start a relationship right now.

The only problem is we're both really into each other and to me it feels like we're already in a relationship. I see him almost every day and in the back of my mind I think, why am I getting close to this guy if I know he's just going to be gone in a few months.

I suppose once he's gone maybe my feelings will change and I'll be able to move on until he gets back, but it's going to be difficult.

I think for now I'm just going to try and enjoy my time with him and not think about the future :)

- F

the single life

Is it wrong to thank an ex for breaking up with you?

I honestly was inlove with my last boyfriend and thought he coulda been the one, we were so happy together and things really worked BUT it was also really hard because of the distance. That was the biggest issue and it was ultimately the reason we broke up. Looking back I see maybe we weren't meant to be soo I'm just going to have fun and live my life, the single life!

I'm pretty sure we're all single now, J B and S!

SO now that I'm single and having fun and not whining because I'm in a relationship where I see my boyfriend once a week I'm going to blog more! Mostly because, these last couple nights have been fun :) I'm not over my ex, but I'm ready to move on and have a good time. So a couple nights ago, I went for coffee with a guy and it lasted a few hours. We drove around and had a really nice time. Later when I was home he text me and told me that next time we should cuddle and watch a movie. He was totally sweet and complimented and I had a good time buuut I'm not sure I want to make it romantic. I definitely don't want a relationship, just fun. So we'll see how that goes. I'm happy to be excited about something!

Tonight! I was bored on msn, I've been sick and I'm kinda restless from staying in the house. So I'm talking to this guy and his pictures look kinda cute, I'm not really sure. Hes funny and hes suggesting we hangout, it was pretty late so I was like nah I'm going to pass for tonight.... thenn like 2 hours later hes on his way to pick me up and we're going to watch movies at his house because he is the worlds best cuddler and will heal my sickeness with his cuddles. This sounds promising. I'm definitely not going to fool around with him or anything though, so I think. His profile says hes not into 1 nighters and he's over that stage. I get in the car and o m g he is HOT. Like right away, I'm rethinking my 'not going to sleep with him' idea. hmmm. Soo we cuddled for hours, he was soo cute and really funny. He was engaged before. This is still blowing my mind, being 21 and having already been thru an engagement that was called off, thats intense. SO obviously he says hes looking for a relationship but he's had his heart broken and he is an empty feeling-less boy. So I'm like screw it I don't want a relationship, I'll blow him. LOL he kinda mentioned that his dick was small, but it seemed decent, he was totally self conscious about it which is definitely lame. Then we cuddled more, and joked around it was fun, he had a cute laugh. He was pretty smooth and he made his way into my pants and OMG he was the best, his hands were incredible I was excited to see what his dick could do... So we cuddle for a bit more and hangout in his bed... then well, we had sex and I was like yeah this has got to be amazing if earlier is any sign. WRONG, blah. Little disappointing BUT he was really fun, and hot so all in all, it wasn't bad. I'm sorta interested to see what happens with his though.

The question is... when do I cross the line from fun single life, to slutty?

Yup, I did it.

I finally hooked up with the fireman...and he is now a full fledged fireman, not just a volunteer fireman. I was free the other night and thought "hey, let's text him and see what's up."

He was free at 9 so we went out for some food and catching up (since I hadn't seen him since forever). We had a good chat and when we finally finished our food I thought we were going to go our separate ways. He wanted to come over, but I told him that my dad was home and might still be awake. He said "well invite me over to play xbox!"

With a bit of hesitation I finally said yes.

When we got to the house we went into the basement and had some awkward conversation before he mentioned how he wanted to see me in my morphsuit. I got changed into it and came downstairs. He immediately started rubbing me all over and complimenting my various body parts (ie. ass, which he mentioned was cute)

Then the suit came off and we started exploring each other. Hands in the pants, and eventually dicks out. His was cute, soft, and he shaved which was nice. I just kept stroking it and then thought, "what if I just went down on him right now?" which I did.

I think he was a little surprised but immediately enjoyed it.

He started getting close and asked if I had any towels around. Unfortunately I did not, so he grabbed his $2 undershirt and used that instead...but he didn't quite get everything. He sprayed a bit on my Hollister shirt sitting near by. "Hope you didn't like that shirt."

I did.

Other than that little slip up, it went quite well and I can say I would do it again.

However...there is this girl. The girl from my last post. We've been getting closer again and I'm not sure exactly where it'll lead, but I find myself really wanting to pursue a relationship with her. Hooking up is fun, but snuggling and having a really close friend who's always there for you is more important. She really likes me and I really like her, but she says there's just something missing...that "spark."

Not sure where it'll go, but I'm enjoying my time with her so far.

That's it for this long ass post!

-F

It's a date...but not for me...

It's F as usual.

I'm feeling sort of depressed lately.

I really thought that this girl that I'm into was also into me.

We were supposed to hang out tonight but she asked if I could reschedule.

I asked why and she told me she had a date tonight.

So I was like:

Yeah, I was disappointed.

She told me she wasn't sure if she really wanted to date right now, leads me on a bit, and then dates someone else.

Maybe she's just in a confusing part of life.

Anyways we're hanging out tomorrow night...

PS How ironic is this...the movie we were supposed to watch tonight was "Date Night"

bullshit I tell ya

-F

*UPDATE* Just got a text from her saying that the date didn't work out :)

but she's feeling sick :(

Fun @ Envy

F here again!
First of all I got a MORPHSUIT!

A few nights ago I got invited to hang out with a couple of gay friends. We started off just hanging out in a house but then I mentioned we should go out. Someone suggested Envy lounge (the local gay bar)
Everyone was on board but since I wanted to wear my morphsuit to the club we decided that we all needed some costumes. My friend Andy just happened to have a roman god and sailor costume laying around.
We headed out and when we go to the club we changed into our costumes. We got out on the dance floor and not long after, Andy and I were grinding.
It got really intense! Had a great night and got a ride home from some randoms...

In other news, there is a girl!
A girl that I fancy
A girl that I also grinded with at a club the other night and that I also think I'm falling for.
She came over tonight and we watched Paranormal Activity. She was REALLY freaked out by the movie and kept grabbing my arm every time she was scared. It was cute :)

I'll let you know what happens in my crazy little world.

Can you say...awkward?

It's F again.

I have a story about a super awkward moment that happened tonight.

I had just left work and was standing on the sidewalk waiting for the light to change.

I see these people (men and women of various ages) standing around and sort of looking in my direction and one of them points.

This guy (maybe late 30's) walks over and starts talking to me as if he knows me. He asks if I live here and a couple of basic questions. So I'm thinking he just wants to know his way around. I ask if he's vacationing and he responds with:

"Uhm, well...uh, yeah...sorta"

At this point I'm still creeped out by how close he's standing to me and why he's even talking to me.

This whole time while we're talking I've been waiting for the light to change so I can cross the street. I see the light change and I have my chance but then...

He looks at me and asks:

"So, are you um...funny...like that?"

It took me a moment before I realized what he was asking.

In my moment of confusion and uncertainty around him I respond with "Ohhh, no, no."

He sort of stares at me for a minute and says something along the line of: "No? Oh sorry I must have been mistaken..."

Then he walks away and I'm stuck waiting for the light to change again...while he stands with his group behind me. The intersection I'm at is a busy one and it takes a long time for the light to change. I couldn't help but feel totally awkward standing there while a guy (who for no apparent reason...) asked me if I was gay.

Now maybe if he was younger, cuter, and didn't creep me out right of the bat, I would've responded differently ;)

"you will probably never fully understand men. So just try to understand yourself"

ST8 Guy wants some fun?

Hello Blog Friends F here!

I just started talking to this guy from POF who told me he was looking for some fun, but was really discreet.

I added him on MSN and started talking to him and then realized I never even checked his POF profile. Once I did that I read this:

"Love to have fun, just want to share this with someone!
Looking for a good time as well, maybe some intimate stuff!
not very good at meeting girls, i want to change that
take it slow, see where it goes from there."

WHAT?!

Sooo apparently really discreet means he's not out of the closet just yet...

UPDATE: Just finished talking to him on msn and he sent me some pics. He's kinda cute, but he's 23 and he looks older. Plus he's just not my type. I felt so bad telling him, but if my history has taught me anything it's to get out sooner rather than later. I'm sure there'll be someone else soon enough...

-F

Live and Learn and Fool Around with Cuties

Well, I learned my lesson tonight!
ALWAYS GET A PICTURE OF YOUR HOOKUP BEFORE YOU TALK TO HIM.
Case in point...
I was talking to this one guy who sounded like he could be a good fling, but then I got his picture.



Yeah, sorry to say, but he's not really looking like my type.

-F

New Guy?

F here...so some random guy added me on POF and messaged me.
I quickly added him to MSN and we chatted for a bit.
He's 19 (unlike all the other 25yrs+ guys that want to hook up...)
He's bisexual!
AAAAAAND he's kinda cute (unlike the other guys...)
Would it be weird if I posted his pic?
...well I'm going to anyways.



That's him on the left...


-F

Gay Bar and Strip Club!

So a couple of weeks ago I got a friend request on FB from some gay guy and had no idea who he was.
He messaged me and said hi and asked how I was doing. I noticed that he was going to the gay bar that night and so was I. I mentioned that if saw him I'd say hi.
I went out to the local gay bar with a friend and her friend.
Saw the guy, said hi and that was about it.
Unfortunately the place was empty...I was quite disappointed, but around 11:00pm some more people showed up including someone from High School that I thought was straight. Apparently he is but he was there because he wanted to take his friend out to have some fun. Personally I think he's in the closet.
Anyways, danced the night away had some good times and went home.

The gay guy had messaged me on FB with his phone number so I added him and we've been chatting back and forth for a while. He thinks I'm cute and wants to hook up.
Here's a picture of him, what do you think:


He's nothing really special but he wants to hook up so....maybe?


In other news I went to the strip club with a friend a few nights ago. Had a great time and got up on stage twice. Let me just say, those strippers had THE SOFTEST boobs and thighs. One of them totally rubbed my dick through my pants too. Shit was so cash.

Can't wait to go to the beach this Summer and get tanned!

-F

Beach Bod?

Since one of our Summer to-do list options is going to the beach, I thought I'd try and get into shape so I can look good and impress...whoever.
So far this is what I'm working with:


and essentially I'd love to get to something like this:


It may be a bit of a stretch, but hopefully I can end up looking like I have somewhat of a six-pack without having to flex.

-F

PS Pretty hot guy eh?

WHOA!

Looks like this old boat's motor is turning again!
I just decide to randomly check the blog and BAM, 2 new posts.
I'll have you know I wasn't involved in any of this planning, but I must say the list will be quite sufficient for Summer activities.
In other news, I'm finally going to the gay bar!
Well technically it's a "lounge" whatever that means.
I'll have to bring back some pictures if I can!
Looks like this Summer is gonna be bitchin'

-F

J & B's Summer List!

1. Maid of the Mist
2. Finish a texas mickey in a week
3. Pack a lunch and go for a hike
4. Go shopping in the States
5. Spend 12 hours drunk on a beach
6. Buy a car (B)
7. Go camping for a weekend
8. Go to a concert
9. Go to Much Music
10. Go clubbing downtown Toronto
11. Go to Calgary
12. Tour a brewery
13. Get a bear from Build-a-bear
14. Spend a saturday hitting up yard sales!

J here.. finally!

apparently my bffs are sluts.. B flirting with a different boy every week and F getting his package grabbed after a cute movie date! :O

I pretty much stopped talking to my hot summer booty call... and he came into my work the other day for a totally awkward experience, fun stuff. And sure enough he text me a couple days after our awkward run in and asked if I wanted to hook up lol

buuut I said no, obviously because .. I'm seeing this super adorable cutie who I pretty much spend every night with.. it's been about 3 weeks now so it's pretty exciting ..except now my blogs are a little boring but I will promise to write more often!

p.s F lets see this hook up with the fireman actually happen, we've been waiting far too long to hear details about what hes packing lol